In less than 2 months I will have accomplished something I have dreamed of my whole life. Saturday May 2nd, 2009 I will walk to the center of a stage and shake the hand of a highly regarded man in a black and blue robe. Once I have shaken his hand, received an empty gold-colored tube, and stopped and posed for the camera, I will continue to walk to the end of the stage, only now as a different man, an official College Graduate. (Yeah I know the caps were unnecessary but they are there to stress a point.)
Scared am I? You bet yourself I am! For the last four years I have lived on this tiny stretch of land we at CBU like to call "campus". My daily life for the past four years has included waking up at around 10 am, going to classes, and spending the rest of the day hanging out with friends, my girlfriend, and of course occasionally doing homework. Anytime I've been hungry I have had a full-on buffet waiting for me from 7 am to 7 pm, and best of all it's all paid for. I've had an apartment with bills paid for, cable tv paid for, and air-conditioning paid for! What I am trying to say is that I've been pretty spoiled these past few years and it will take some flexibility on my part to get used to being out on my own. The good thing is that I realized this over the summer and since then have been slowly taking steps to get my self used to what is to come.
This summer I began a job/internship with the Director of Strategic Marketing at CBU, Karen Bergh. She was a professor of mine in a Public Relations class, which till this day is still one of my favorite classes I have ever taken at CBU, next to Bowling, and New Testament Survey. ;) She adopted me into the office as a student worker and worked with me to devise a project that would forever change CBU. Ok, so maybe I'm being a bit biased here, it probably hasn't forever changed CBU but it definitely has added a little hmpff! I began working 8 hour days over the summer, coming in at 9 am and leaving at around 5 pm. I figured it was good for me in more than one way. One, I would get used to going to bed early and waking up early, and second, it would be great work experience. Once the school year started I went down in hours per week to about 20-25, but then added on 18 units of school, bringing me from a 40 hr work week, to a 40-43 hr work week. Now I am taking 21 units and working the same amount of hours. Stressful? That would be an understatement! But If I can't handle this stress now, then I will never be able to handle the stress of real life. So I push harder and harder in an effort to learn as much as I can and to leave the best impression I can on my boss and her peers as graduation nears the corner.
With Midterms kicking my butt all over the place the last two weeks, and this upcoming week, the sleepless nights will continue. I am no stranger to the term all-nighter and I can swear to you that at least 30% of my nights this semester have been spent awake. Two weeks ago 9 page paper on US History and test on New Testament, last week mid-term on Interpersonal Communication and 10 page paper on Socio-Physiology and mid-term for Marine Biology, this coming week I have a statistics test and a take home final to do as well as a midterm for my New Testament class.
The times joking around all day are over, and in less than 2 months these times of whatever you call this phase will be over. So back to me being scared? Why am I scared? Simply because I can only imagine what's next. Real World here I come.